I no longer read fashion magazines, but once upon a time they were my drug of choice. Eight times a month I'd score, devouring each magazine until there was nothing left of it. I knew all the fashion spreads, the latest beauty trends. I knew what celebrities liked to do with their time off. I lived for Glamour, Cosmo, Vogue, Elle.
But as I got older, I realized fashion magazines run the same articles over and over: how to please your man, how to lose three pounds, I escaped my abusive boyfriend using a paper clip and a text message. One can only read these articles so many times before predicting the end and realizing one has wasted another $4.00 on a magazine.So I stopped reading them.
I think it also helped that I stopped reading these magazines right around the time I was developing actual hobbies: sewing, cooking, baking. These magazines never talked about anything I was actually interested in, but rather focused on going out, drinking, what to do with your girlfriends and how to attract a man--four topics I don't have any need for in my life. I started to feel as if these magazines were no longer meant for my eyes, and honestly, it wasn't offensive. It was just time to move on.
Last year, though, I did start reading xoJane.com, because I'd loved Jane magazine, and it also seemed much more diverse than Slate or the Huffington Post. The writers were real and weren't afraid of being a little harsh or un-ladylike. I've been a big supported, sending emails to my friends and commenting when I felt the need. I really enjoyed it! After being ousted by so many women's magazines, it felt wonderful to read an article and actually agree with what the writer was saying, and not feel like I wasn't being the right kind of woman because I had a differing opinion.
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Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Women in Primetime
I'm terrible at keeping a theme here. Also, I'm terrible at scheduling posts. That Christmas presents post wasn't supposed to go up until yesterday. What the hell, Blogger?
Anyway, I was working from home yesterday and turned on the first episode of PBS's America in Primetime, which focused on women in television. It spanned the timeline of television: from Lucy and June Cleaver to the women of Sex and the City and Desperate Housewives. I've always been a television watcher--it was way more interesting than anything going on in my life, even as a little child--so I recognized most of these characters, even if I didn't grow up in the original era.
I don't know if you've seen it, but basically it talks about women's roles in television. June Cleaver was the (a)typical fifties housewife; Mary Tyler Moore as Dick Van Dyke's wife was a game-changer, as was her later role on her own show; Roseanne, Murphy Brown, Carrie Bradshaw--all were iconic in their own ways. As the social scene changed, female characters did too--sometimes as a cause or an effect, depending on the situation--and there were very few examples of weak, dependent women who left lasting impacts on society (however, they focused on sitcoms only, so the reality television stars of today were nowhere to be found. I've yet to think of any of them as a role model).
Anyway, I'm watching this as I'm peeling carrots and parsnips and garlic. I'm watching it as I'm cleaning the giblets out of a chicken. I'm watching as my boyfriend sits at his office, not even thinking about who will make dinner. I'm watching and realize I'm actually wearing an apron. And I'm listening to these women talk about how they didn't just want to be a housewife, how they wanted more, how what they did was good, hard work and how they loved it. I'm thinking about how I used to yearn for that, and now all I yearn for is bedtime. I'm wondering what happened.
I tend to be pretty domestic, either as a direct result of my living situation or as a way to cope with it. Things like sewing, embroidery, cooking, baking--these are comforts to me. I don't do it because I have to. I could just as easily not go grocery shopping and buy a rotisserie chicken from Giant every night. But I take on this role because the responsibility makes me feel important. I feel like, because I'm not fulfilled in my career, I can possibly fulfill myself at home by making something with my own hands. I think this is a wholly modern way of looking at this, similar to depression: we live in an age where we actually have time to assign roles and feelings to these actions. One hundred years ago, that wasn't the case. You cooked because there was no Chinese takeout. You didn't have time to sit around and think about how you want more from life. You worked, and you worked hard, unless you were wealthy and could afford to have others work for you. Fulfillment? What's that?
They also brought up the subject of children, and how many of these female television characters who we remember and love (any of the above I mentioned) either chose to not have children or had them, but were very honest about it. Motherhood wasn't what they expected, and while they are fictional characters, they're voicing the opinions and feelings of millions of women who might not be able to admit it to their friends and families. That, honestly, scares the shit out of me. I am inundated with people and blogs who think motherhood is the end-all, be-all, and that's what all women need to do: nurture. Everyday I read the mommies who seem to have a never-ending supply of fertilized eggs, yet still have time to make melted-crayon art and yarn sculptures. They seem happy (of course, I'm reading this through a sponsored blog), but is this all it's cracked up to be?
My mom always worked. I remember her being exhausted, too tired to deal with us, depressed, overwhelmed, overprotective, anxious. I also remember her being a loving mom. But there were no misconceptions about her life: it was hard. It was probably the hardest thing she's ever had to do. And from the time I was little, I thought, I don't want that. I don't want to feel so tired and so futile everyday. No matter what she did, how many Christmas cards she made on her day off or how many pies she baked out of stress, she still had to wake up the next day and do everything over again. That was my role model. I love my mother--she is who I trust the most--but she wasn't the omnipresent mommy blogger I see today. Things were very different, and I wonder if that will be my life someday. Do I want that?
I wonder if, because I don't like working and also because I don't like the idea of having children, I'll ever find that happy medium. I couldn't be a housewife, at least not in the typical sense; I hate cleaning and would eventually resent Nicholas for getting to have an outside life. But I also don't want to feel like I wasted my life because I had children (or didn't), and I don't want to realize this when it's too late to change.
Is it normal to feel so conflicted? This angst should've left years ago, along with retainers and listening to the Velvet Underground. I feel that, at 24, I should know what I want out of the next five, ten years. In actuality, I have no clue. Do you feel this way too? Am I the only one left wondering?
Anyway, I was working from home yesterday and turned on the first episode of PBS's America in Primetime, which focused on women in television. It spanned the timeline of television: from Lucy and June Cleaver to the women of Sex and the City and Desperate Housewives. I've always been a television watcher--it was way more interesting than anything going on in my life, even as a little child--so I recognized most of these characters, even if I didn't grow up in the original era.
I don't know if you've seen it, but basically it talks about women's roles in television. June Cleaver was the (a)typical fifties housewife; Mary Tyler Moore as Dick Van Dyke's wife was a game-changer, as was her later role on her own show; Roseanne, Murphy Brown, Carrie Bradshaw--all were iconic in their own ways. As the social scene changed, female characters did too--sometimes as a cause or an effect, depending on the situation--and there were very few examples of weak, dependent women who left lasting impacts on society (however, they focused on sitcoms only, so the reality television stars of today were nowhere to be found. I've yet to think of any of them as a role model).
Anyway, I'm watching this as I'm peeling carrots and parsnips and garlic. I'm watching it as I'm cleaning the giblets out of a chicken. I'm watching as my boyfriend sits at his office, not even thinking about who will make dinner. I'm watching and realize I'm actually wearing an apron. And I'm listening to these women talk about how they didn't just want to be a housewife, how they wanted more, how what they did was good, hard work and how they loved it. I'm thinking about how I used to yearn for that, and now all I yearn for is bedtime. I'm wondering what happened.
I tend to be pretty domestic, either as a direct result of my living situation or as a way to cope with it. Things like sewing, embroidery, cooking, baking--these are comforts to me. I don't do it because I have to. I could just as easily not go grocery shopping and buy a rotisserie chicken from Giant every night. But I take on this role because the responsibility makes me feel important. I feel like, because I'm not fulfilled in my career, I can possibly fulfill myself at home by making something with my own hands. I think this is a wholly modern way of looking at this, similar to depression: we live in an age where we actually have time to assign roles and feelings to these actions. One hundred years ago, that wasn't the case. You cooked because there was no Chinese takeout. You didn't have time to sit around and think about how you want more from life. You worked, and you worked hard, unless you were wealthy and could afford to have others work for you. Fulfillment? What's that?
They also brought up the subject of children, and how many of these female television characters who we remember and love (any of the above I mentioned) either chose to not have children or had them, but were very honest about it. Motherhood wasn't what they expected, and while they are fictional characters, they're voicing the opinions and feelings of millions of women who might not be able to admit it to their friends and families. That, honestly, scares the shit out of me. I am inundated with people and blogs who think motherhood is the end-all, be-all, and that's what all women need to do: nurture. Everyday I read the mommies who seem to have a never-ending supply of fertilized eggs, yet still have time to make melted-crayon art and yarn sculptures. They seem happy (of course, I'm reading this through a sponsored blog), but is this all it's cracked up to be?
My mom always worked. I remember her being exhausted, too tired to deal with us, depressed, overwhelmed, overprotective, anxious. I also remember her being a loving mom. But there were no misconceptions about her life: it was hard. It was probably the hardest thing she's ever had to do. And from the time I was little, I thought, I don't want that. I don't want to feel so tired and so futile everyday. No matter what she did, how many Christmas cards she made on her day off or how many pies she baked out of stress, she still had to wake up the next day and do everything over again. That was my role model. I love my mother--she is who I trust the most--but she wasn't the omnipresent mommy blogger I see today. Things were very different, and I wonder if that will be my life someday. Do I want that?
I wonder if, because I don't like working and also because I don't like the idea of having children, I'll ever find that happy medium. I couldn't be a housewife, at least not in the typical sense; I hate cleaning and would eventually resent Nicholas for getting to have an outside life. But I also don't want to feel like I wasted my life because I had children (or didn't), and I don't want to realize this when it's too late to change.
Is it normal to feel so conflicted? This angst should've left years ago, along with retainers and listening to the Velvet Underground. I feel that, at 24, I should know what I want out of the next five, ten years. In actuality, I have no clue. Do you feel this way too? Am I the only one left wondering?
Monday, August 22, 2011
Badasses
I read this article after finding it on the Fibre Space blog--okay, first thing's first, I'm probably going to take up knitting as soon as I can find a class near me. I apparently don't have enough hobbies--and it kind of shocked me, but at the same time, made me sad for someone so close-minded.
The author, Peg Aoli, is basically saying that only women who ride motorcycles, come up with a sequel to "Rebel Grrl" and give their newborns tattoos are strong women. We as a society are soft and meek, reverting to Mamie Eisenhower instead of Eleanor Roosevelt. We make cupcakes not because they're hiding switchblades for our boyfriends in jail, but because we think someone would enjoy them. And then we blog about it! The horror!!
I read through the first page of comments and didn't see a single one in support. Most women were knitters, bakers, mothers, volunteers, daughters of feminists, feminists themselves--they were certainly women who don't make money yelling at their girlfriends on Bravo original television. They were real women with real lives, keeping it together everyday in this hell-in-a-handbasket world. So that makes me think the author may not actually believe in what she's saying. Maybe she wrote this to rally together the strong women--the real women--just to see what they're capable of. I mean, come on, she says Sookie Stackhouse and the woman from Sons of Anarchy (my dad's favorite show--definitely not a feminist there!) should be our role models today. No thank you.
If, in fact, the author does believe this, then I feel bad. I don't necessarily think of myself as a badass or a strong, resilient woman--I tend to cry a lot and I've thrown the occasional pity party--but I'm making it, day to day, just like everyone else. And I also happen to sew, bake, cook, clean, and maybe I'll be knitting soon. Just like the generations before me--none of which rode a motorcycle or ate bonbons.
Why do we feel the need to categorize women? Why aren't we saying anything about men who get manicures or shine their shoes? Get over it! It's 2011. I think we all have bigger problems on our plates than whether or not we're cool enough for some HuffPo writer.
And that was Monday's rant, everyone. I'm exhausted and would really like some bread.
The author, Peg Aoli, is basically saying that only women who ride motorcycles, come up with a sequel to "Rebel Grrl" and give their newborns tattoos are strong women. We as a society are soft and meek, reverting to Mamie Eisenhower instead of Eleanor Roosevelt. We make cupcakes not because they're hiding switchblades for our boyfriends in jail, but because we think someone would enjoy them. And then we blog about it! The horror!!
I read through the first page of comments and didn't see a single one in support. Most women were knitters, bakers, mothers, volunteers, daughters of feminists, feminists themselves--they were certainly women who don't make money yelling at their girlfriends on Bravo original television. They were real women with real lives, keeping it together everyday in this hell-in-a-handbasket world. So that makes me think the author may not actually believe in what she's saying. Maybe she wrote this to rally together the strong women--the real women--just to see what they're capable of. I mean, come on, she says Sookie Stackhouse and the woman from Sons of Anarchy (my dad's favorite show--definitely not a feminist there!) should be our role models today. No thank you.
If, in fact, the author does believe this, then I feel bad. I don't necessarily think of myself as a badass or a strong, resilient woman--I tend to cry a lot and I've thrown the occasional pity party--but I'm making it, day to day, just like everyone else. And I also happen to sew, bake, cook, clean, and maybe I'll be knitting soon. Just like the generations before me--none of which rode a motorcycle or ate bonbons.
Why do we feel the need to categorize women? Why aren't we saying anything about men who get manicures or shine their shoes? Get over it! It's 2011. I think we all have bigger problems on our plates than whether or not we're cool enough for some HuffPo writer.
And that was Monday's rant, everyone. I'm exhausted and would really like some bread.
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